“What are you so anxious about?” Dr. Rad often asks me. And “What are you striving so hard for?” my Houston based therapist, Dr. Daryl Bailey, likes to challenge.
“I don’t know…” is my honest answer. I think the unknowns in life just sometimes get the best of me. I am mostly certain that no matter what comes I will always be okay in the end, but some of my nights are restless as my mind carries me into an abyss of what ifs and pointless hypothetical scenarios of how things could turn out.
And other times it’s guilt that plagues me. And not even over big things, but little ones. Guilt about just not being a perfect mom or teacher everyday. Guilt about not saving enough money. Guilt about keeping the dog in the crate for too long. Guilt about not praying enough or not spending enough time with my family and friends. Sometimes these things get t